NONA NANONANO

Senin, 25 Juni 2012

MASA LALU




Semalam tadi, aku terbangun dari tidurku
ada cerita lama yang datang kembali dalam tidurku,
orang orang lama yang pernah hadir mewarnai hari hari ku
apa kabar mereka ?
aku pergi bukan karena aku membenci mereka,
aku pergi karena memang tidak ada yang perlu di pertahankan lagi disana ...
walau hanya sebentar tetapi cukup memberi arti bagi ku,
cukup memberi dampak bagi setiap keputusan keputusan yang aku ambil
dalam menjalani hari hari ku 
dan juga orang orang yang ada di dalamnya.

Terkadang kangen 
hanya sebatas kangen
dan mengharapkan yang terbaik terjadi disana
mengharapkan perubahan menuju kepada sesuatu yang positif
dan semua yang tergabung disana
merasakan tenteram dan bahagia yang sesungguhnya.




Minggu, 24 Juni 2012

GAMBAR SERIBU BAHASA



























                                                                                                                           
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Jumat, 15 Juni 2012

THE LATTER



Few minute a go Victor call me at my phone, and tell all to me.
I don’t know what can I say when Victor said about his planning for want go out from this home town.
I feel  like so sad. Dan feel no have power  in my body.
Am I broken heart ? I don’t know. Maybe yes.

Yes, I know,
all this time, never we talk about Love in we relation.
We are close, all time together but never talk about want to be in relationship.
Just be a friendship.

 
Kupang, mei – 2003
                Dear Popy,
How are you ?
I need to talk with you, but I know we just can do with latter.
You remember about Victor ? I told you before in my latter ?
Until now, he doesn’t have girl friend, same like me too.
I know need to start from me, but … hhhh … im scared,Popy.
I close with him,
Every time I always with him.
He always helping me, he ready when I need somebody to be with me.
Talk , hang out, happy, sad, scared, all feeling, he always know per second about me.
Everyday I learn to understand what he want, what he like and all about him.
But never we talk about LOVE in we relation.
First time when I know him, we promise for be a good friends.

But, honestly… Popy,
Lately, I don’t know what happen with me …
I feel like want him more than be friends,
I feel jealous when I know he go out with other women ,
And if I not meet him, mom said I always talk much about him.
Oh my God, I’m in love with him
Popy, u hear me ? I’m in love with Victor.
should be i'm happy, right ? but back again I feel scared as of when he try to ask about we relationship I try to divert at other topic.
So, it’s means I’m a liar ?  whereas, I love him.

Popy,
Shortly, Victor want move to other city and he tell me that for work.
Are you think he disappointed with me ? or it’s true, he never love me ?
What you think Popy ? tell me…
Should be i honest to him about i'm in love with him ?
So, please tell somethink to me . I’m wait ‘ur respon.
Oh,ya … please keep this secret.

                                                                                                                With Love
                                                                                                                 -Dinda –


 
I read again at three times the letter I write for Popy.
Popy is my bestfriends when we at same high school but now she continue study at Makassar and me still at Kupang. But we keep talk by latter.
Today I write two latters. One for Popy and other for Victor, and I will give him tomorrow when escorted to the port.***

“Dinda, Did you want we end like this ?”
“wew … what ?” my heart beating fast
“ah, forget it Nah…” his hand still take hold of me
“maybe, I have to much wish for be with you,” it’s sound like complaint. Not take hold of but still look at my eyes.
“oh, this is for you” with smile
“letter ? what you wrote ?”
“hei …see, you will late, 10 minute and ship will depart”  I push her ​​back slowly
“good bye Vic, please take care … “
I'm really proud when i hear back my voice. So natural and without the impression of fragile.
but God knows, my heart cried out painfully.
Victor, I love you ! ***


After three days …
I saw telephone on the table,really wish for the phone was ringing.
thinking, what he do in there ? with who's ? and ..opss ...
phone's ringing. I almost jumped because shocked, my eyes see at a clock. This the time Victor call me. He said to me before go. He will call me. I hear the sound.
“Victor ?! it’s you there ?”
“Yeah”
“Din, i cancel my departure. Wait me, I will meet you at home”
“I don’t know what you mean Victor ?”  again, my heart beating fast
“Victor, what’s going on ? tell me, you kidding me huh ?”
“I didn’t”
“then what? Aaaaaaaa …!! Tell me,Nah ? you sick ? delay? Or what ?”
“I cancel my departure. I told you. Seriously”
“what ?!”
“I tell you the true, I've read your letter and i really understand about what you wrote.

Letter’s ? What I wrote in my letter’s ? I remember, nothing have special I writing in my letter for him.
nothing serious.
Just a
little advice and prayer and taunts me about the girls there .  Then, What needs to be understood?

“Din, I’m sorry. I had not been convinced by my own self.
  If only I were brave, you didn't need to ask about my feelings to you.
  thankfully, there is a letter that ...”
“Aaaaaaa…! Letter, letter, letter . You talk again about letter. What’s the letter’s ?”
“you forgot, about you give me letter’s ?” Victor ask
“Yes, but … ?”
“Listen,listen to me, Din …  you need to know and please believe.  From many guys that you worried, I'm the little that”  Victor voice began to soften.

 
I started to panic when the suspicion dawned that suddenly came to mind. letter? is it possible?.
“Waittt …! You talk about what ?” Dinda ask for be clear
“ Talk about you, talk about me, talk about us.
   Din, I’m serious.  I'm the guy who always believe and appreciate your honesty. are proud to receive   you. because I ...”

“MEANS?” Dinda ask again.

Oh my God ! The letter’s.  Sudden intense throbbing head.
“Letter, yeah … the letter’s. How can the letter get  to you, huh ?”
Impossible, letter sent for my bestfriend Popy in his hand right now. And impossible to if i'm wrong to put the letter ! Impossible !!!
“Sorry if I read the letter, I know the letter is not for me” Victor said

so, really.
My mistakenly to put the letter.
o, I didn't know, what to say. So,SHY!
And I almost slammed the phone, if Victor doesn't first speak to me again.

“Now, I'm in front of your house.
  I stood where we chatted the last time meet. But first I want to apologize, for over three days from the   scheduled departure which to cancel, I'm just at home.
  I want to give a surprise to you. So, what you wait ? Please, open the door for me, my love ...”

I hung up the phone, then I remove the remnants of tears on my cheek and walked toward the door with a smile happily.
Finally,

"I'm coming, my love".




Adelweis
East Nusa Tenggara, Mei -2003.


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